Yesterday, I completed the Yuengling Shamrock Half Marathon. Problem was, I was signed up for the full marathon.
We got to the starting line a block off the boardwalk about a half an hour before the 8 a.m. start. The race start was not corralled. There were pace leaders sprinkled throughout the crowd, so I got in line not far behind the 4:00 pace leader. I figured I would see what that pace felt like, and if I could hang, fine, if not, also fine.
Can you see me? I'm in the white V-neck Nike shirt, close to the right edge of the shot.
We took off and the pace felt relatively easy, so I watched that little green 4:00 sign hovering above the crowd like a carrot on a stick. Things were going great for the first six or seven miles. Every time I took water from an aid station, I’d lose ground, but I’d catch back up with the pace group and settle in. It felt like a huge group training run.
It was as we were coming out of Camp Pendleton, a very small state military reservation, that I really started to feel like it was not going to be my day to run a marathon. My knees had felt tight pretty much from the beginning, but now they were becoming painful. As we approached a steep bridge around the 10-mile mark, I knew I had to slow down and walk. The 4:00 sign grew smaller and smaller as it disappeared into the distance.
I walked up the bridge, then tried to run again on the downhill. It was nothing more than a pitiful shuffle. I went back to walking.
Every time I would try to run, my knees would seize up. I decided I would have to finish this race walking. I sent a text message to Clark saying it would be a long day, as I could no longer run. He sent one back saying to just take my time.
I continued walking. At this point, the race course was on the boardwalk. The other runners were streaming by me as I half walked, half limped down the boardwalk, which had quite a few spectators. As if it wasn’t embarassing enough being the lone walker at that point, our race bibs had our names on them. Friendly spectators kept yelling, “Come on, Abigail! You can do it!” I tried to smile at them, but it really made me want to cry.
I walked the rest of the way to the halfway point, where Clark, Dave and Kasey were waiting. My knees were seizing to the point where I could no longer really walk. I looked like I had two wooden legs as I tried to move forward without bending my knees. This was by far the most severe the IT pain had ever been.
I took some water from the aid station and walked over to the sideline. I told them I wanted to finish it, but I could see in Clark’s and Dave’s eyes they thought that was a bad idea, after seeing how I was already limping at the halfway point. I saw the 5:00 pacer walk by and said I was going to try to keep up with him. I tried to walk, but my legs just would not cooperate. The pacer took off running, and with him went all my resolve. I knew I had to stop right there.
So that’s what I did. I turned around, walked back to my family and said I needed to go home. And that was the end of my first marathon attempt.
I was not as disappointed as I expected. I think I knew it was coming. My knees had just not felt right the entire weekend, but I wanted to try. Although apparently, it hurt worse than I realized, because later that night, when we were driving home, something went haywire in the dash of my car and the windshield wipers and indicator lights started going crazy. I started bawling. I told Clark it felt like NOTHING was working the way it was supposed to, most of all my stupid knees. I guess I was just feeling betrayed by everything.
However, I can’t feel too bad about this. A year ago, I couldn’t fathom running any farther than a 5K, and now, I’m disappointed because I “only” ran half of a marathon. And when my knees fully heal, I know I will be able to run a full marathon.
I’m taking at least the next four weeks off running. I’ve agreed to do a summer racing series with TK. The first race is a 5-miler on Memorial Day weekend, followed by five 5Ks throughout the summer.
And I’ve decided to try a fall marathon, probably the Richmond Marathon on Nov. 13. That’s more than eight months away. I’ll start training for that in July. If my knees aren’t sorted out after all that time off, I’m cutting them off.